Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Making an effort

As you know I loosely started THM around May 20th. In my first week and a half of just drinking the Good Girl Moonshine and adding some salads to my meals I dropped 9 lbs like a rock. However, as we neared the end of the two weeks between paychecks the plan friendly food began to wear out, and I had to go back to eating the off-plan foods I still had in pantry. I couldn't afford to just chuck everything and start over with all on-plan foods. Over that weekend I gained back about 2 or 3 lbs. That was disappointing, but totally understandable given the food I was eating. 

Here's the exciting part of this. Over the course of the two weeks, I had been noticing my mobility increasing almost daily. One day I was just walking and suddenly realized that I was swinging my hips again. I have been "toddling" holding my body as stiff as I could to minimize the constant pain in my legs and lower back. I work in a church and I have to walk to through the sanctuary to the front of the building several times a week. Its a very average sized Methodist no mega church 5K stride needed. I would be in so much pain by the time I made it back to my desk that I would be pale and sweating and having to do breathing exercises just to keep from throwing up. This was daily pain. People that were around when I would get back to my office were always concerned for me because I looked as bad as I felt. In that two weeks, while I still dealt with pain, I wasn't having to hold myself still and I wasn't sick by the time I got back to my desk. 

After paychecks, with this "new" mobility in my back pocket so to speak, we went grocery shopping. I made it through Sam's no problem. A little sore, but okay to go to another store. This just doesn't happen. I am usually so worn out from the stress and pain that the shopping trip gets cut short and I can't even think about another store. This time, we went on to Walmart and Publix! Three stores in one night. Unheard of! LOL- I was in SO. MUCH. PAIN. the next two days. I really overdid it, but it was fun while it happened. 

When we went shopping we restocked the house with on-plan foods and Stefani and I decided it was time to take it to the next level and eat fully on-plan. We started right away Tuesday, June 3rd. By the time I woke up on the third day from the shopping trip, the pain that would have crippled me for at least a week was totally gone. As a matter of fact, we had to stop by Winn Dixie on the way home from an evening out Saturday to pick up more cottage cheese and I walked through the entire store without having to get a cart to lean on. Triumph!! (One of my short-term goals accomplished!!) My energy is way up and I only deal with flare-ups about every other day now. Usually in my knees and hips, not so much my back. I think that my body was really storing up some toxins that are starting to break down now...and it wants to rebel. Anyway, we have been completely on plan for 8 days and it's getting easier and easier to do. 

In the last couple of days I went through my ovulation period. Yesterday I was so bloated I couldn't stand myself, and last night I had a complete hormonal meltdown. Not emotional...just cravings. (I think my emotional state has been pretty even keeled, and I notice my crabby moods faster.) Yesterday my tongue would accept nothing but "real" chocolate. I said "to heck with it" and ate a handful of chocolate chips melted with sugar free peanut butter and raw walnuts. It was good, but not as good as my brain remembered it being. Then, later last night I ate about 20 or so more chocolate chips. In my mind...this was it. This was the end. I had officially fallen off the wagon and there was no going back. After the way I felt yesterday (as big as a house), and after eating all. that. sugar. I figured I was destined to spend the rest of my life gaining weight. 

Oh, thank you God for your grace that covers my life. 

I woke up this morning to a 2lb weight loss. My jeans fresh out of the dryer, who had always been snug in the tummy but not the waist, were loose on me and are currently sliding down my body as I walk because I don't own a belt. My new shirt that I bought a couple weeks ago that was cute, but still snug around the middle...fits me perfectly and I. Feel. Cute. Today!

With that little pick me up..I realized that I needed to start making an effort. I had given up styling my hair because it never helped anyway. I just pulled it back into an unattractive pony tail. I didn't wear makeup because that didn't help either, and I would sweat it off in the midst of all my pain. Today, I styled my hair and applied a tiny bit of makeup (baby steps ya know). It's time to show on the outside what I feel is happening on the inside. 

This is me this morning. ^^^

Nest is me almost 4 weeks ago.